Friday, 5/7/21
This was written a quite a few years ago, after my divorce was finalized. (More on the marriage in a later post.) It expresses deep gratitude for God’s love, which never left me like I thought it had. He’d been waiting for me to notice, listen to and heed Him all along.
It occurred to me when reading this poem a couple of days ago that with a little tweaking it could also be about with the way I’m now able to trust myself enough to feel vulnerable. About how the splintered, wounded parts of the self that has been rejected for so long FINALLY feel safe enough to come back home, to my heart.
Even though this was written before “Void”, the poem I shared last Friday, “The Long Road Home” could be the healing counterpart to it.
The Long Road Home I see you, after so long without you. I see you, in the distance, on my path, on the other side of a wide chasm’ your arms are open, patiently awaiting my return. Hesitantly at first, with my arms outstretched, I reach out to you, but now I’m running fast, faster, towards you’ my heart filling with undying love and appreciation for you, for all you’ve done for me, for us, for ALL. My mind sings joyfully, knowing I’m finally, finally returning home to you. My voice lifting up to you, laughing, elated, telling you all, but knowing you always knew, heard, and understood - You see into my heart. Now I can see the love, compassion and forgiveness in your eyes, telling me it’s all right, safe, to love trust and believe you completely, there is nothing to fear here. The chasm between you and I just doesn’t seem so insurmountable now. So I leap over the abyss, into your arms which hold me up like I knew they would. Like you always have, whether I acknowledge it or not. My Savior, My Lord, now I am finally home in you, Jesus. (Please hold me close, Christ, it’s been a long, long road home, and worth every step.) Thank You, Jesus (and Pearl)! AMEN! c. Pearl E. M. Be back here on Tuesday, hope you'll be here, too!
