The Vision

Friday, 3/19/21

Hello Beautiful Person, how is your day going? 

I have a question for you – when is comes to your place in the world are you someone who usually feels like you are on the outside looking in, or in the midst life, or on the inside looking out?

I’d always felt like that last one, like I was trapped in my own mind and shell.  I could see the rest of the world through the cracks and holes in the protective, stifling encasing and watched as everyone else experience life in a way I wasn’t yet capable of.  That’s changing, thank Heaven, as the shell is opening up ever wider and I’m living and feeling life and love more and more.  

This poem was written years ago.  For a young lady who couldn’t feel this really expresses the yearning for what I wanted but didn’t dare believe could be experienced outside of my imagination.  I know better now.  Lord knows I am still a work in progress and He’s definitely been working in me, healing the misconception that all I survived left me too damaged to ever be worthy of good, true, decent love in any form.  I’ve been learning about the love of my Heavenly Father, Redeemer-Jesus, friends, and since I consider some of them family (one of whom actually is), then I do know family love as well, and I am so grateful. In reference to the type of love this poem alludes to, well, we’ll see. If there’s something/someone God knows would be right for me, and the other person and I are both ‘on board’ with it, then yay! But if it never happens I have enough faith to know that the love and life I have as I grow along is what’s best for what God has for me to do, and that’s the only way I’ll ever have peace and joy. Thank You, Abba.

The Vision
 
They say-
 Love is the only flower,
 It’s the only emotion with any power.
 They say-
 Love is only the beginning
 to the only life worth living.
 
They tell me -
 Only two hearts can soar
 through the battle of evermore.
 They tell me -
 Dreams can only be visions
 until two hearts can take away the divisions.
 
So what am I so afraid of?
 
 I’m afraid of -
 Frost that kills the flower
 from a chill that holds too much power.
 I’m afraid of -
 Beginnings that must have ends
 because what’s a live must one day be dead.
 
I want to -
 Take my heart outside,
 and dust away all the old heart lies.
 I want to -
 Throw away the fears that it holds,
 and be a part of the vision it enfolds.
 
How do I tell -
 The difference between,
 heart lies and the ultimate dream?
 How do I tell you -
 I have seen my dream,
 and you are the vision I have seen?

-Pearl E. M.