9/28/26
Hi Good Person –
Do you ever have a crisis of faith?
One’s been building for quite sometime only I didn’t realize it. Have been having clusters of hard memories and nightmares, and listening to people’s stories. It’s all been leading me to a place I’ve been avoiding for decades. Which, I think is supposed to be a good thing in the end but right now not so sure.
I’m not going to get into this here. In spite of what I’m going through I’ve only ever wanted to put honest info and pieces of self ‘out there’ that would either help a survivor understand themselves better, or help those who care about them do the same, and/or perhaps help inspire someone to think of ways to help their self or others find their way to a God that is greater than everything, and so loves and does for us accordingly.
I’d rather not write about the sh*t I’m feeling unless there’s some sort of resolution first. So in other words, I’ve got nothing.
Other than, gratitude for the friends I’ve turned to. One for prayer before I ever even knew what was about to hit, and the another who took seriously what I was trying to convey and didn’t offer any insincere platitudes that would minimize it for their comfort. She mentioned God got me to this point because it was time. Even though He’s being splattered with all I’m hurling at Him, all the rage and pain that’s inside of me, He can handle it and it’s time to heal it. She made a couple of good suggestions and I’m gonna get to them.
But first, I’m asking for prayer if you’re so inclined.