Category: Pearl

Mon. Nov. 23, 2020 Whew, starting to feel better, thank God!  Been under the weather for a few days and while not fully healed yet there is a lot more life inside!  Yay!  Was even able to ride around on my lawnmower!  Loved that – BIG Smile! 🙂 There hasn’t been a new post in… Continue reading Nightmare? Or dream?

(11/20/20) (This was written when I was a teenager.) Far away in a fantasy world The only place that’s right for this girl, The dreamer sits alone in the sand capturing diamond dreams in her hand. Staring at nothing, laughing at less, trying to clean, her thoughts are a mess. Casting the change from reality… Continue reading The Dreamer

Wed. 11/18/20 As I’m healing from a physical ailment my brain cells are completely disinterested in writing something original, so today I am putting up one of my favorite poems by someone else.  This is an excerpt from Marianne Williamson’s book, “A Return To Love”.  (Have you heard of Ms. Williamson?)   I fully identify… Continue reading Marianne Williamson

Monday 11/16/20 This post could contain triggers for some Little Pearl (LP)  –  Me, from infant – 7 years old.  Elder Pearl (EP) – Me, at current age (Pease see ‘Cast of Characters in My Mind’ tab on home page, or “Dissociation” post dated 10/14/20 for full explanation) Welcome back!  I hope you had some… Continue reading Why (not) Me?

(11/13/20) (I love this because it ended up being a pretty good prediction of how my life was going to go in a spiritual sense.) There I was, walking along, not really paying attention to where I was going. Suddenly I tripped and fell, but instead of landing on the grass I fell into a… Continue reading Decisions

11/11/20 (This post could contain triggers for some people) It’s going to take a while to unpack Monday’s post. It’s actually just a snippet of what happened during that period.  I’m not trying to imply I had the worst childhood ever by any means but I am saying it was horrific at times and I… Continue reading Beginning to unpack Monday’s post.

(11/9/20) (This could have triggers for some people) Still Innocent  Fractured memories remain in my mind, The first, a snapshot image of a kind   of horror that wishes to remain untold, it happened so young and never grows old. (It was never my fault, NEVER my fault.) There’s a dreaded room at the end… Continue reading Continuation of Little Pearl’s years, “Still Innocent”

(11/6/20) Not to brag, but it only took me TWENTY years to get my associates degree! (I can be a bit slow at accomplishing some things :))   I had taken a philosophy class somewhere toward the beginning of this educational odyssey and loved it.  When it came time to do a report on a… Continue reading Yogi!

(Wed., Nov. 4, 2020) L.P. = Little Pearl, who is me for first 7 years of life. See ‘Cast of Characters’ (can reach from home page menu) or for more detailed explanation refer to post titled ‘Dissociation’ dated 10/14/20. E.P. = Elder Pearl is me at current age Every time repressed memories start slithering up… Continue reading The Immutable Truth About Ourselves

(11/2/20) (This post could contain some triggers for some people) I’ll be honest with you, writing about what happened with my mother (blog dated 10/19/20) during Little Pearl’s era was difficult.  Trying to make myself write about this post’s subject and what’ll be coming up over the next several weeks kinda makes me wanna vomit.… Continue reading When hell began in earnest